I hope that my child, looking back on today, Remembers a mother who had time to play.

Children grow up while you are not looking. There’ll be years ahead for cleaning and cooking. So quiet now cobwebs. Dust go to sleep. I’m rocking my baby and babies don’t keep.


"Interesting" would be a major understatement to describe the past few weeks. I finally got some answers about my back pain that started in January. Was mis-diagnosed with a herniated disc... I have degenerative disc disease and mild scoliosis. Had (literally) an insane reaction to the pain killers they had me on- they caused anxiety and insomnia and other problems. Just was uncomfortable all the time and didn't feel "normal". I didn't lose it or anything. lol. Once I went off them, with the help of physical therapy- I'm feeling much better.

I am just over 1 1/2 weeks from Em's party and now I have a bunch of things to get done. Finding foam swords is proving to be quite tricky-tricky. They have them whenever I DON'T want them (and my son is constantly doing the obnoxious "mom, mom, mom, can I have?" thing. But now that I NEED them for the princess and knight bash, they're no where to be found. I tried dollar tree too. Boooo! I'm planning to make the shields out of cardboard, starting that this week! Otherwise, I'm good to go! So, so, so excited! Everything is coming together nicely but I'm starting to feel really behind. I just can't wait to see my love.

I'm having a crazy withrawal from my camera. Best Buy geek squad has it to fix... fingers crossed, before Em's party. I'm using an old one that's busted up, but does what it needs to some of the time. No flash, the shutter shakes and won't open. lol. But it takes pictures better than my phone.

Yesterday, my kids had a meltdown over a cricket. Think I'm joking? Think I'm exaggerating?

Not even a little bit. He climbed up ON her tricycle to get away. It looks like he'd throw her down to that scary cricket bug in a heartbeat to save himself. lol. If i didn't know he was such a little protector, I'd be concerned. So that was yesterday.

Today... we learned that bugs aren't all bad.

IF (and that's a big, fat "if") I can keep this parsleyworm caterpillar alive, it will grow into a beautiful black swallowtail butterfly! So tomorrow, I have to go to the store anyway, I will be picking this little guy up some parsley! Apparently he loves dill too. The goal being to teach the kids the metamorphosis process AND to cure their fear of (some) bugs. Plus, I think it's cool. I'd just be happy to not have them screaming bloody murder any time they see a bug bigger than an ant.

10 days till my honey is here! 2 months has been too long.

Life is good.

We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today.

Boy, n.: a noise with dirt on it.

...The other day (weeks ago, when I started this post) in our pool, I was swimming (as much as is possible for someone 5'9 1/2" tall to do in a 3 ft pool) with my son. He pauses and looks at me thoughtfully and asks (very innocently)... "Mommy, are you a mermaid?" I tried not to laugh out loud, since that usually embarrasses him. I love seeing myself in their eyes. It makes me feel like I might be doing something right most of the time. Em, who is generally a child of few words gave me a huge hug and said "Emmy has good mommy."

Yeah, I melted.

Today-today... august.
Well, yesterday Kface was cracking jokes on me. We're on our way to church and he says "mom, do you need gas?" I say "No, honey. I have gas." He snickers and says "Do you have BAD gas?" har-har-har, K-man. Thanks. He's lucky he's cute. So then we get halfway through church and he says "MOM! *alarmed face* WHY are there holes in your ears?!" haha. Okay. We make it home and he goes to sleep after a lot of back and forth with me about WHY he needed to go to bed at 9 p.m. after being in the car 70% of the day and not napping. This morning he grabs my face and looks at me and says "WHY are your eyes black?" Well, thanks, kid. It has -nothing- to do with you arguing with me about your bedtime. lol. (Same child who asked me a few weeks ago why I "spilled" by basket of clothes on my bed). Tonight I ended up having to clean my little ones room, she destroyed it beyond her own capability to clean it (with K's help, I'm sure). I just threw some tacos together and gave them their favorite applesauce as a treat for eating all their dinner. I asked him if it was good (he usually sits at the table because he won't eat and I'm annoyed because he'd been saying "I'm hungrryyyy" in the first place). He replies "It was yummy, mom!" and then gives me the cutest little wink. I get told semi-regularly that my husband needs to purchase a shotgun for when Em gets older, but I think we're going to have more than one handful. So I tell them they are awesome for eating and they can go play. He gives me this half concerned, half playful face and says "No, I want to get a blanket and snuggle with you." How could I say no? So I had her on one side, him on the other and we watched Daffy Duck's Quackbusters. If you haven't watched it, find it on netflix. I grew up watching it with my daddy starting when I was K's age... now watching it with them is a whole new great memory! I was a happy mama tonight. They can both be really great when they want to be. :)

so that's about it. 2 more weeks till THE princess party. All the kiddos I was expecting (or about 90% of them have RSVPd) so it's time to get serious! My garage sale is (finally) next weekend. This weekend is the Run for the fallen on post. I'm looking forward to my first actual run of any kind.

Life is good, but I cannot -wait- to see my love.